“What if the armies of the Lord picked up and dusted off their swords…”
This week we are experiencing the uncertainty of yet another possible looming medical issue and a needed root canal for me. We’ve received several statements from our insurance covering stating what they are covering from a few recent procedures. This more than likely will be much less than the actual bill we get from the facility.
The nature of our NY based insurance is that there aren’t too many in-network providers in Florida. So even if I go to a participating provider, any needed procedures will more than likely be done in a facility where the anesthesia is not our plan and we get hit with a $1000+ bill for a minor procedure that took less than an hour.
The familiar heaviness started to return this week. I’m in the midst of a great book study called Different Dream Parenting: A Practical Guide to Raising a Child with Special Needs. The first few chapters are devoted to advocacy and medical resources. I wish this had been around in 2001 but I am devouring it now.
As I was reading I was reminded…what if I just prayed about it and turned it over? As if I hadn’t known about this principle since my early days in AA in 1986? Why do I stress and not trust? Has God, my Abba, not forgotten me?
Psalm 139 tells me that He knows what I am thinking and what I will do before I do it. That no matter where I go in this earth or what I go through, I can never flee from His presence. His thoughts of me outnumber the sand. He knows my anxious thoughts.
All I have to do is pray. And “let go and let God.”
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